How far will God go to get your attention?

I have been getting hints...grasps....emails.....skywriting from God to get my attention about my walk. My walk is like the breeze, strong at one point, but then life takes over and becomes a gentle spring breeze. This is not how i want it to be. I want the Hurricane Katrina gusts to take over and touch lives in ways that i know at some point im capable of. Hes been talking...ive been listening and walking sideways from it. Doubt has been planted so deep inside me that its been a struggle to get it out. I used to have such joy doing what i do best but its been missing for some time. But then he reminds me on why, and for whom. I think that losing sense of why i do it is where the joy gets lost in translation.

The reason that this is making me question this more, is that Bonnie told me that the music leader at church is ill, bad ill. And that out the congregation, who could take over? I didnt know, but she looks at me and said that I was one of the only ones. That i had the ear for the music and could hear it. That thought Terrifies me, to be put in that place. I know i can sing, but to lead with an instrument is a little outside my comfort range. This means applying myself to either learn Guitar or Piano (which neither is easy) and to , at one point take charge. Im far from worthy enough to lift up his name and lead in praise. Just as im not worthy of his grace alot of the time. I read something on facebook from a friend of mine and says that through his short comings and faults that he takes the time to look around and see all that God and done and will do for him in his life. And that he is not worthy, and get all you have to do is accept Jesus into your life and you become worthy. One little thing.

One Word :  Faith

Trust In Jesus - Third day

One of these days we all will stand in judgment for
Every single word that we have spoken
One of these days we all will stand before the Lord
Give a reason for everything we've done
And what I've done is

Trust in Jesus
My great Deliverer
My strong Defender
The Son of God
I trust in Jesus
Blessed Redeemer
My Lord forever
The Holy One, the Holy One

What are you going to do when your time has come
And your life is done and there's nothing you can stand on
What will you have to say at the judgment throne
Well,I already know the only thing that I can say I

I trust in Jesus, my great Deliverer
My strong Defender, the Son of God
I trust in Jesus, blessed Redeemer
My Lord forever, the Holy one

There's nothing I can do on my own to find forgiveness
It's by His grace alone I trust in Jesus
Trust in Jesus

I trust in Jesus, my great Deliverer
My strong Defender, the Son of God
I trust in Jesus, blessed Redeemer
My Lord forever, the Holy One, the Holy One

Whoa

I trust in Jesus, my great Deliverer
My strong Defender, blessed Redeemer
My Lord forever, Oh yeah.